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it’s awfully late at night and I’m being kept awake by… my subconscious. pestilential thing! it’s been telling me “you still have things to do you can’t afford to sleep” and yet it is preventing me from getting anything done at the same time. even though You Are Not So Smart taught me that procrastination is a psychological/subconscious instinct, it is unfortunate that I am not so smart and I don’t have the mental strength to overcome it so… I wait. this always, always happens. ALWAYS. why am I not overcoming it? I don’t know.
my mind is a white black blue solid-coloured blank. I feel at peace in the weirdest possible way but any peace is good peace (even the self-induced, ignorance-is-bliss kind) so I’ll take it. in the red dark grasp of midnight and insomnia I watch YouTube videos and stalk people on Facebook and think about my old life and my current life and how horrid social media is, and then I clear my mental cache and relegate these thoughts to the back drawers of my brain to gather dust until the end of time. lurking on Facebook is counterproductive and… what’s that word for ‘backwards-looking?’ (PLEASE ENLIGHTEN ME IF U KNOW I hate this feeling it’s like I’m not reaching my full potential because I know this stupid word but it’s just not coming to me) because as I hope you’ve noticed, it doesn’t help you look ahead or think ahead in any way. when I stalk other people on Facebook and mentally compare my life to theirs I root myself in the past and present and use these as chronological markers to ‘rank’ myself against others and then I forget to look forwards and think “self-improvement” rather than “My Life Is Better Than Yours” and this is unhealthy. I know this feeling well, I do it and feel it all the time and I know this is a common feeling because intrinsically we are all the same person, we’re all the same flaws stitched together with good intentions or whatever. I should think so anyway? and then I continue watching covers of popular songs, don’t tell me this isn’t your life too
whatever
tonight I’m hooked on Alex Goot! Well this is a lie, I’m hooked on Alex Goot any chance I get. I think he’s my favourite YouTube musician! this is really saying something because unlike Ghibli movies, few YouTube celebrities are ever able to catch my fancy but there’s something about Alex Goot that gets to me I think I have a tiny kinda maybe teeny weeny crush on him, says Huiran the Teenage Girl who considers herself too cool for words like ‘crush’ (unless used in the context of “candy crush” as in “JING HAN LET ME PLAY UR CANDY CRUSH I’M BORED ZZZZ”) and by extension also considers herself above the mundanity of ‘crushes’. I AM A RAGING HORMONE ANIMAL. today I learnt another use for the word ‘astringent’ which I think is a pretty word; it reminds me of gel, like the transparent goopy slightly blue kind of gel and I should think I know what it means but I forgot.
oh yes back to Alex Goot :) I like watching Alex Goot sing. every music video feels so close it’s like he’s performing live right in front of me. intense performers have this charisma that draws you into their performance and his is the quiet, focused, curt sort of intensity that I particularly enjoy watching. when he sings you can tell he’s really sincerely into it and not preening for the camera or whatever which I don’t like because hello people you can’t actually smile and flip your hair and sing at the same time? stop grinning while you sing! are you an austrian cheshire cat preteen choir??? no??? then stop!!! and conversely Alex Goot, quite unlike these plebz, is an expressive jaw-shifting sloganshirt-wearing hipster with big glasses and a nerdy straight-talking face and a smooth not-taking-your-shit voice and I like that about him, also I like his face when he sings and also in general heehee -giggles- why am I such a teenage girl lately
I’m listening to a cover of Rihanna’s “Diamonds” by Alex Goot, Julia Sheer and Chad Sugg and it’s well done but more than anything else it reminds me of Kenny singing “shineeee bright like a diamond” a brazillian times over at chalet because Kenny is fond of lyrics like these and also has a brain capacity which only allows him to remember like 100 words at a time, this might explain why he keeps Sparks Fly over and over again and also why I can REMEMBER THE LYRICS TO SPARKS FLY BY HEART. anyhow kenny if you see this (and con and marcus and teng (unlikely) and woonwei and whoever), I miss you wherever you are (most likely at tekong) and I hope you miss me too!!! because if you do it gives us a reason to hang out :)
I am legit sleepy now, goodbye.
